Today

Today I just want to throw the whole idea out the door, down the drain, off a cliff...

What am I thinking? (What I am really saying is: What the FUCK am I thinking?)

How will I afford to get to Alaska?

What will I do if gas is 5.00 a gallon times 10 gallons times 3 fill ups a day times 7 days?

(That equals 1050.00)

Plus lodging. Plus food.

What am I thinking moving away from those I love?

Even my love ones in Seattle are too far away.

How will I afford to rent a place, and put down a deposit and turn on the lights?

What will I do when I am scared?

I am already scared.